The Muck
So It all starts with me. Big quote here. However, we can take it deep or keep it surface level either way. This quote should be on repeat in the back of your brain. IT’S all about you and, what you do, what you choose, what you think, what you consume. You make your circumstance.
At that time, I had a certain faith and asked for help. I needed to escape and focus on myself. I found a new place for myself and my three boys. I told my husband I was done, and we separated. We moved to a nice apartment with a neighbor below us. I kept doing yoga while going through chemo, medications, doctor visits, and hospital stays due to pancreatitis from the meds. I lost weight, then gained it back quickly. As a single mom dealing with illness, I didn't want to rely too much on my family. I fell into a stressful cycle because I couldn’t work, and my ex, who I filed for divorce from, disappeared and refused to sign the papers. However, due to his choice, I eventually got my divorce.I honestly thought I was on the path to doing better. However, the reality was that I went through four different jobs in just three tumultuous years. With multiple surgeries and an array of trial medications, I realized that I really wasn’t living life to its fullest. My days were consumed by a relentless cycle of being in bed, working, and frequent visits to the hospital. Then, at one of my new jobs, I had the fortune of meeting someone who was incredibly passionate about health and making significant lifestyle changes. Inspired by their enthusiasm, I began to make more conscious choices about my own well-being. I dove deep into this journey. It was a challenging period, as I made the bold decision to stop all treatments and medications, which brought with it a wave of emotional and physical trials. My exercise routine became more regular, my diet was noticeably changing for the better, and for the first time in a long time, I started feeling better. Unfortunately, my progress was abruptly interrupted when we all contracted Covid, which ultimately led to the loss of my job due to the lingering effects of Long Covid after getting sick. I found myself on short-term disability, which forced me to dive even deeper into my health journey. The mounting expenses weighed heavily on me, and I was just so incredibly fed up with being sick.